I’ll keep this short for once.

Every single year has consisted of being held back. School, friendships, my emotions, circumstances, work, family etc. I wont put up with that in 2012. I wont let people walk all over me. I wont let people treat me as the friend of convenience. I wont stand by and watch people be mistreated by others. I wont accept second best. I wont let fear hold me back. 

My life is too short to let people bring me down, to hold myself back, to be scared of pursuing my dreams. 2012 marks a new begining. And I’m going to take advantage of it.

There’s a difference between patience and a doormat
I’ve got footprints all over me
Only wanting to make others happy 
I didn’t notice the dirt wedged in every crease
I’m so filthy, that not even I want to be friends with me
Only useful for unwanted company

As some may have noticed, I’ve been pretty negative a lot of the time recently.
I’m sick of being stressed out at work, treated like I’m stupid, people lying to my face, being used, not knowing what people really think of me and finally, sick of being stuck here on the Coast.

I’m trying really hard to make it through every day and find one positive thing about it. Unfortunately I’ve rarely had a day where I’ve been able to do that.
So please just bare with me while I attempt to get through the rest of this year. It really hasn’t been nice to me recently.  

I’ve been living in a world inside my head
Only dreaming from the safety of my bed
Picture’s dancing right behind my eyes
I’ve never known what it’s meant to feel alive
Morning approaches while my faith flees
Reality is not the kindest place to be
But with the sun burning in the sky
It reassures me that hope still shines bright

© - J.Waters 2011